Sometimes we don’t have to look for answers. The answers come looking for us. This is what happened to me the other day. I had just published my last post when Val showed up. She hardly ever leaves without leaving a thoughtful comment and this time she left something even more precious: a little nudge. The simple fact that she had commented on my post made me look up her latest ones. Which led me straight to Mooji. And this in turn led me to a beautiful quote that has been with me since.
You have tried it the hard way,
now try it the heart’s way,
the effortless way, for a while.
I have not come to burden you
but rather to free you
of the notion that
you need to work hard
to awaken to the Self.
The Divine is not even
a breath away from you.
It can never be apart from you.
It is the core of your very Being.
Needless to say this resonated a lot with me, given that I had just recently come to realize that I’ve been living life the hard way for way too long, wrestling with it rather than trusting it. I had also just come to the conclusion that I wanted to try a different approach. One of more flow. One of less resistance. One of giving up control (gulp). One of not knowing and being comfortable with it (double gulp).
Of course, this kind of change doesn’t come easily. At least not to me. So I have my rebounds and relapses. But I keep coming back to this idea. And it’s starting to grow on me. If only for the simple reason that it feels so much better than its alternative. And it’s starting to become a lived experience rather than a mere theoretical concept. Like a big jigsaw puzzle slowly taking shape. You keep picking up part after part, each and every one of them being just a snipped of the bigger picture about to be revealed once you put them all together.
So I keep picking up those snippets that attract me, that make me curious, or bring me joy, – following the heart’s way. Hoping that eventually it will lead me to a wider perspective of how all of the individual parts fit together as a whole. I might misplace one part from time to time. Put it somewhere where it doesn’t belong. But I trust that in time it will become obvious where it does. Until then I leave it where it is and keep picking up new parts. And putting them where I feel they fit in. For now.
In the big jigsaw of my self.